Strangers

Gone are college days, where, in four years i got used to faces. Now I am in another city and everyday i come across "new" people (expression : either "Wow!" or "now who is that!"). Work, outings, house visits, parties, everything is adding to the so called friend-circle and is an enormous contribution to my social life(no, i am not a celebrity!). I have nothing against the whole  thing, just that i question the purpose sometimes. For others it might be 'what you need in a new city' but for a typical Pisces dreamer all this comes as a hallucination. Is this what i planned? are these my kind of people? are they "like" my college friends or enemies? is it going to gel? is it going to last?  does it even mean anything to me, or them?...

Assuming to have lived 1/4 th of my life, I believe, I already have met a number of people and have had good relationships with many of them...Maybe i wasn't good enough to keep them going, but it seems i have left behind most of it. For me, all this socializing funda is like starting afresh(phew!). I know it can be real fun but i am just a bit nervous, just like some kid who moves to a new school. There are cool kids you would love playing with, but at the same time, you dont want to lose or get hurt by some stranger!

So, should i stop playing? Certainly not! I am trying hard to fit among the new psychs in my life :D
These are strange funny lazy party freaks, (at least some of it), who keep hugging each other and they somehow feel that abusing each other is cool. I cannot deny that i have a lot of fun with them, we laugh like crazy and we party like never before, but at the end of the day, they still are strangers to me. I guess it will take time and yes i am impatient!. I need to find a place among this confusion, someday i should be able to call them friends (real ones)... I hope that strangers are just friends waiting to happen :)

I was looking at some random pictures and i came across two contrasting ones.

In one pic,i was standing right beside a nerdy of mine.I look in the jolliest of my moods and she has her own intense expression.(Looks like it was clicked after some examination :D).Now the second pic has nothing to do with me-but she looks REAL different.I have never seen her this happy before.It was long back that i got to know that she has gone abroad for higher studies,but it was expected from her.But as i went deeper into her updated snaps,I could see her enjoying herself in every possible way...She has been to all sorts of places,art galleries,disneyland and even amazing clubs.Looks like everything is perfect for her.

WAIT!Am i sulking??not really,but yes it made me "think". What are my plans?How has my life changed after i graduated?There are so many of us who take life easy and it goes easier.We just take life how it comes and we enjoy every moment.I am a strong believer of this philosophy of "PEACE" and "CHILL",but are we overdoing it?Has is become monotonous too?Well,I am not sure,but it needs a thought.

What is it that we lack?Might sound ridiculous,for people of the "Peace" school,but yes,its "AIM"!

I cannot remember times that i aimed very high or something.I never went beyond my "easy" ways.Life is not hard even now,but yes it could have been more "meaningful"

And why am i even saying "could have been"

...its never too late!

Who needs motivation,its right here :)