Gone are college days, where, in four years i got used to faces. Now I am in another city and everyday i come across "new" people (expression : either "Wow!" or "now who is that!"). Work, outings, house visits, parties, everything is adding to the so called friend-circle and is an enormous contribution to my social life(no, i am not a celebrity!). I have nothing against the whole thing, just that i question the purpose sometimes. For others it might be 'what you need in a new city' but for a typical Pisces dreamer all this comes as a hallucination. Is this what i planned? are these my kind of people? are they "like" my college friends or enemies? is it going to gel? is it going to last? does it even mean anything to me, or them?...
Assuming to have lived 1/4 th of my life, I believe, I already have met a number of people and have had good relationships with many of them...Maybe i wasn't good enough to keep them going, but it seems i have left behind most of it. For me, all this socializing funda is like starting afresh(phew!). I know it can be real fun but i am just a bit nervous, just like some kid who moves to a new school. There are cool kids you would love playing with, but at the same time, you dont want to lose or get hurt by some stranger!
So, should i stop playing? Certainly not! I am trying hard to fit among the new psychs in my life :D
These are strange funny lazy party freaks, (at least some of it), who keep hugging each other and they somehow feel that abusing each other is cool. I cannot deny that i have a lot of fun with them, we laugh like crazy and we party like never before, but at the end of the day, they still are strangers to me. I guess it will take time and yes i am impatient!. I need to find a place among this confusion, someday i should be able to call them friends (real ones)... I hope that strangers are just friends waiting to happen :)
Assuming to have lived 1/4 th of my life, I believe, I already have met a number of people and have had good relationships with many of them...Maybe i wasn't good enough to keep them going, but it seems i have left behind most of it. For me, all this socializing funda is like starting afresh(phew!). I know it can be real fun but i am just a bit nervous, just like some kid who moves to a new school. There are cool kids you would love playing with, but at the same time, you dont want to lose or get hurt by some stranger!
So, should i stop playing? Certainly not! I am trying hard to fit among the new psychs in my life :D
These are strange funny lazy party freaks, (at least some of it), who keep hugging each other and they somehow feel that abusing each other is cool. I cannot deny that i have a lot of fun with them, we laugh like crazy and we party like never before, but at the end of the day, they still are strangers to me. I guess it will take time and yes i am impatient!. I need to find a place among this confusion, someday i should be able to call them friends (real ones)... I hope that strangers are just friends waiting to happen :)
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